John's Letters

Lonely nights are what you can feel
When your alone and no one’s there
It takes a long road to reach each other’s care
Far as the galaxy can never share

Cards aren’t enough to comfort you
Calls can be boring too
All that is needed are hugs and kisses
For the things that you both misses

On the other shore she rest
Waiting for the man from west
Longing for the time to feast
A memory for its best

Finally the ocean meets the shore
The twilight saga began to occur
In a flash of second love was born
The two of them intertwined and in love they sworn

In the world of love and cruelty
Many died for such vanity
Hating life for what it brings
Leaving it to the street of grim

She encountered a mess in life’s page
Her feeling was stricken by rage
Hell rules her heart like a raging fire
She’s in control by the hate of wire

Her eyes shows no mercy
Her lips utter more words of tragedy
Her whole body signals jeopardy
Making the whole moment a cemetery

She hates life and its color
She even smells its poisoning odor
A spear as sharp as the samurai
Telling her to take her life and die

Often times no one can hear me
No one can understand what I feel
I am almost neglected and dying
Like a shipwreck in the shore

Suicide is the solution of everything I hide
Drugs and alcohol makes me collide
No right path to walk in to
All I see is just a dim light clue

Father, father can you hear me?
Your thoughts of me seems so far away
My prayers seems blocked when I pray
Can you really hear me, honestly?

You love me but often times I don’t love you
I hate you but your GRACE is true
I feel abandoned and you’re always there
I mourn each day but you always care

Dear Mr. God, I am writing to you today
Of the things I didn’t pray
The thoughts that I hide in the clay
My old memories that long time ago run away

A simple day yet full of sorrows
A feeling of mine that brings no tomorrow
I feel tired and aching
Why my world is all about craving?

Dear Mr. God, why do birds really sing?
And why do people died for just a thing?
I have a lot of questions to ask
Why do I have to wear all the time my mask?

Today I don’t know where else to go
The only hope in me is YOU
Mr. God please answer me if you have time
I’ll be waiting for you, Oh gracious divine

I thought life is all about pains
It’s all about heavy rains
It’s all about sadness
Nothing but brokenness

But love penetrates in me so deeply
Inside my heart there rings a melody
Of tenderness, love, care, and harmony
Oh, truly love works amazingly

I’m in love with a princess
An ugly frog that longed for a kiss
A lifetime fairytale that I don’t want to miss
A dream that no one can ever erase

I want to build a castle of love
Its foundation is made up from above
Surrounded with beauty and serenity
A home for me and my princess for all eternity

My pen will carve my princess name
To the heart of the sea, so it will remain
Mysterious, unpredictable, and unchanging
Its fulfillment is shown in our wedding ring

The flowers blossom in the garden of nowhere
The two of them can’t be found everywhere
They try to embrace the love they’ve found
It’s just an illusion playing them around

It’s hard to let go of someone you love
The more I try the more I died
The thoughts of mine is starting to collide
This will never be satisfied

Goodbye I love you are language unwritten
They are concealed underneath the fabric woven
Beneath the universe only by love it can be seen
A form of goodbye sealed with love untaken

Like a love song that has no ending
A start that has no beginning
A love that will see no evening
Only splendor and a beautiful morning

Kindness is the audience of today
Remembrance of the decades and the past
Instrument of the musician that so vast
Songs of the ages that always last

Treasure in the hearts of someone dear
Inspiration to someone she care
Awesome to a lot of friends out there
Kristia is a name who has a lot to bear

Agent of love and restoration
Never surrendering in the days of tribulation
New being in the days of confusion
Armor is she in a true liberation

She is a gift worth keeping
A genuine hope worth receiving
Simple yet, astounding
A great woman worth dying

The stars are witness of her sadness
The tears that flow upon her soul
Represents her heart, made of wall
She cried in silence and then she fall

The heaven heard all her sentiments
She was alone although she never meant
She was just a child with no argument
All she just wanted is a lovely environment

In the middle of darkness I heard her mourn
She was crying since her heart was burn
Of a raging fire so tender and pure
She was confuse if the fire was cure

The angels of night began to light
They saw a girl so lonely that night
She was afraid and don’t know how to fight
She broke her face and died with fright

How does hurting love feel?
Can it wound a soul and kill?
Ironic faces of love displayed
I’ve seen it in my own jail

Dim, dark, and unknown
A puzzle of love on my own
A deep source of wellspring flows
A bundle of hurts and sorrows

Poisonous and dangerous love can be
Time becoming worst each day
Tales of music and brains may see
A hymn of death and fantasy

Fear dwells to challenge the lover
If their diamonds are forever
A test of trust and commitment
A circle of fear and abandonment

Does love really exist?
Does it really create a rainbow?
Can love really make a twist?
Or just a light black shadow

To love and to be loved is like heaven
To be hurt by the one you love is like hell
To surrender is all defeat
Not to love is living in hate

Love thrown in the air vanish
Love thrown in the sea ceases
Love thrown in fire perish
Love this time is all wishes

I’d love someone who is never mine
Though it has a sun, it never shines
It takes great love to fully understand
My love is all written in the sand

Love is what makes the world go round
It carries us with no bound
Perfectly it gives itself away
Such love makes the lovers stay

My love is different because I mourn each day
I cannot recognize its presence; I can’t find its way
I’m totally lost all I can do is pray
I can’t find its music and let it play

Between the known and the unknown I exist
Climbing the ladder I cannot resist
Complicated and empty is me
An attempt to figure out the horizon I see

Sometimes I want to give up
The more I love her the more pain I have
That’s the reason I mourn with all my heart
My pain, my hurts will be remembered by my art

My precedent is today’s present
A history of my love that has no event
Taking the path of the unknown
I was blinded and walking alone

One day I saw a girl in my dream
She is alone and always screams
I give her my heart as part of my art
She then began to see that she lives in my heart

She thought I’ve forsaken her in a castle
She never knew I almost die in a battle
To discover the things that will make her live
I give her my own so that she will be saved

I did not recognize I’m already dead
As she began to weep in my bed
The tears that flows wipe out my death
But I can no longer live with her in the planet earth

As I walk beyond eternity
I will let her know that she will always be
My dearly loved and cherished princess
The solitary one I’m going to miss

Showing you His greatest love
He came to earth from up above
Without any doubt brought out
He just willingly came out

You! Oh man of sin and doubt
Questioning His love
Not knowing that He died for you
To show you how much He love you

In times of your pain
Don't put you're trust in vain
Cause God is with you
He is there to comfort you

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about the days
When in His wonders you amaze

He is really great
When you have lost your faith
Just think of him
You will be relieved in your distress

Much more that what you've done
If you suffer much more than others
It is not a ticket to another ladder's step
It is just a beginning of the promise He keep

Looking for somebody
I found out nobody
In this world where everybody
Is searching for anybody

I've been everywhere
In a place of nowhere
Only to find out you're just anywhere
But somehow, I'm lost somewhere

Until I saw you
Shining beyond the blue
I tried to reach you
I focused myself but I can't do

Until one day I realize
To let this love come true
What I fantasize
Now, my dreams I will recognize

Time has come to love you
All my fears I will throw
To prove to you that it's all true
Try me, just give me a clue

Now I'm starting to create
A true happening....
Where we should meet
Because I came to love you late

During my youngest days
I don't know where is my place
Whether in a far away hill
Or in the place where I'll be killed

Then one day I started to fall in love
I know it's a gift from up above
But then how come you go away?
You made me cry, I felt betrayed

I have no hope, I was lost
Deep inside there's a hole, I felt worst
Why life is so unfair?
One day you're here and then suddenly disappear

Happiness that I once gain
Turned into sadness and great pain
All my effort were in vain
Useless and out of flame

Now that you're suddenly gone
Gone 'till the dawn of the sun
I think it's a mystery
Than can create a big tragedy

It's time for me to say goodbye
Remembering all, then I cry
Looking at the dark sky
Wishing that I'll just die

If you are gone
I will treasure that you're the one
Who would mold me into a better man
Who can do anything as long as there's sun

Fly to your new world
Explore the gravity of sharing
Now that you're gone
My world stopped to sought the sun

The garden of my happiness
Is now covered with loneliness
The apple of my joy
All died and has been destroyed

No more beauty
No more fragrance
No more dragonfly
To brighten my lonesome paradise

Work...It all ends
So, I cry in the leaves of the past
Don't know where to start
Still looking for that dragonfly

Goodbye! Goodbye!
Heaven declared: John will die,
You must say bye to the dragonfly
And to the garden who witness all the tears..

I tried to say that I don’t love you
But I’m a fool if I do
Cause you’re my strength and my joy
My shield in every journey

You are so special in my heart
I don’t know why but I’m hurt
To say how much I love you
Though I cannot show it to you

I think for many times
To ignore you in my heart
Still you’re the one who owns
No one can ever blown

Your eyes are like thorns
Of roses which begun to glow
And also begun to grow
In my heart full of sorrow

Go! Go! I don’t love you
Even if it hurts me so
I will just keep it to myself
Without expressing to thy self

You! Oh so cute girl
Cause to make my life curl
Making it so ugly
Like a lily in a deserted valley

Why? I asked God
Such question may be senseless
But I really need to know
What God has tried to show?

How amazing life is
Harder than the stone
But God made you
To make me glow

Facing you I cannot do
Loving me you can’t do too
But only one thing I’ll do for you
I will never forget you

Where is God? I asked one day
Down the road as I made my way
Sadness gripped me all around
It seemed my world had sent Him out

Where is God? I asked one day
The trees were bare. The sky was gray
Then looking down, to my surprise
I saw Him in my lover's eyes.

She is the girl I can’t forget
Of all the things she never regret
For all the time that she spent
She was hurt, though I didn’t meant

How could I repay her?
All her life to me she care
She neglect her own Calvary
She carries my own destiny

I promised her the lovely moon
Instead I gave a rose of stone
I saw her tears they were made of thorns
I then killed myself with the pride of horns

She made a risk worth taking
I find myself from dying to living
She extends her arms of love
I saw the light I fell in love

Now she’s the ink of my pen
The stars of my dream
Composer of my life’s hymn
She’s Hannah the amazing woman I’ve ever seen.

Realizing the truths of life,
I found someone who gave me life.

In behalf of my silence,

I’m still pursuing to reach my dreams.



All my life I’ve been searching,

All my life I’ve been wanting,

To find the sweetest pie,

And I saw it as I stare in your eye.




Across the miles I found you,

The smile that beams within you,

Touches my heart and let it tremble,

Makes me happy and comfortable.




Your eyes are like thunder,

Your presence is like a wave

That when I come unto you

I feel that I have no strength too.




In my dreams I couldn’t find you,

But in my heart you’re always true,

My heart is always open to welcome you,

To let you in and not to let you go.




Your voice in a far away place,

Was like a bird, singing for its praise

To the One who created you,

To the One who give me love to love you.




I wrote this poem to see you bloom,

To inspire you in your own home,

‘Cause you’re my only pie

I wish I won’t be shy

Time just come and time may go
Roses don't remain to grow and glow
It's leaves sometimes fall in time of snow
Take care of it to preserve its glow

Days are not enough to flourish it again
So many pieces might had been missing
God is the only way who can make it bloom again
Perfect is He who can give us rain

Lovely roses turn into ugly ones
Not as the same as those have been gone
Faded petals were fallen on the ground
Blown by the wind, creating no sound

Outer beauty now has gone away
Fast as the weather who once betray
It's too late to rearrange it in proper way
Look what you've done! Now, leaves of roses fade away.

darkness in one side of you
picture it out in another view
loneliness beyond the blue
what would you do?

you cannot see it in the dark
light your candle and see the light
see the beauty of an old ark
in a day full of mark

J colors your day
E makes you happy
S gives you smile
US, partners in every mile

in every darkness of life
there’s a shining sun so bright
covers the dark, making it light
something shown and became white

live like a shining star
where people see you from afar
inspiring them as they go on
to live life full of turns

See yourself in a distance
You can reach until France
Always looking for something
Found a lot then gain nothing

Morning has broken
Now you’re forsaken
You can’t find the right way of living
You can’t trace the right way of thinking

Wrapped in a dirty wrapper
A hidden precious pearl
Shining in the darkness
Coping with all the lonely days

Pray and then don’t go astray
God will lead you in a hay
Where the little boy once lay
Suffered, died and betrayed

The beauty is foretold
The innocent has been called
To see the rainbow away
That prepares for another day

If I die would you cry?
If I die can you still smile?
If you see me flying high,
Saying goodbye with a cry.

I'll die without saying, "I love you".
Without telling that I miss you,
But for sure I'll still continue
To reach out for you

I wish in my burial,
I'll see your face before I go
Before I leave this earth of sorrow
Before I'm gone and let you go.

How sad it is if you'll not miss me
But don't worry for I'll never be
As sad as in my memory
In my heart you'll always stay.

i am so lonely that day
no one cares and no one dares to stay
in my depression
to You only i pray

i cry out to You, my God
take the sorrow inside my heart
let thy love mend my heart
create in me a simple art

what i've done?
can You forgive me?
will You set me free?
and change my way?

i am a failure Lord
no one understands me
even when i let them see
my true identity

hold me in You're prsence
and let me count you're blessings
because You alone is my God
to Thee i will be glad

How can I doubt Him?
How can I fear?
When I know Jesus
Is standing so near?

When I know that Jesus
Is walking by my way
All of my nights
And all of my days

He is my Master
I am His Slave
He is the King
I owe Him everything

Help me remember
That Christ is by my side
Never forgetting
The grace that He supplied

His love lives forever
As I'll serve Him each day
Dear God, help me honor
His steadfast love every day